I’m not sure what’s going on with me anymore. It’s been about a month since I last SI’d and it’s been getting a little bit tougher lately. I completely isolated myself from everyone that has been there for me and wanted to help me. I haven’t exactly figured out why but I always push away everyone whenever I start to get close to them. I undo every relationship and every friendship I have. I’m just so lost lately I’m afraid that I’m getting myself buried deeper and deeper. Although I haven’t been SI’ing lately, other things have been happening. I constantly obsess over my weight and I have had food issues. I don’t know what I’m doing … I just can’t seem to stop advancing further in the wrong direction.