I came across this blog today and was relieved to find that I’m not the only adult in her 40s who still struggles with SI, and who also hides it from their significant other. It’s doubly hard for me now because I went 16 years without SI, thinking I was successfully “recovered,” then a relationship crisis and a series of family deaths totally threw me off, and I started self-injuring again. It’s been a tough year of ups and downs, and a lot of shame and fear. I’m still working with my therapist to try and regain balance. I’ve found that Somatic Experiencing really helps, as well as the book, “Coping with Trauma-Related Dissociation.” I also paint, and write. But nothing is a magic bullet, and it still comes down to me facing myself, trying to find another way to deal with overwhelming emotions. I wonder what others have found that works for them? I’ve never reached out like this before. It feels vaguely comforting to know there are others out there, struggling with their own ghosts.