So this is my first time using this website, but I already love it! I love just reading what everyone has to say, and the inspiring comments left by others fills my heart so much!

I’ve been struggling with SI since I was 14, and I am now 19 and in college. I really thought that I would move on completely from SI when I transitioned from high school into college. I did do much better though. I didn’t si for 9 months straight at one point. But lately it feels like I am in high school again, letting si become a part of my life again. I am so ready to leave si in the dust, it doesn’t belong in my life. I feel like my mindset is so much better now than before, the only thing left is the si. It’s so hard to not give up and just say okay I’ll deal with si for my entire life, I’ve done all I can. But I don’t want to give up, I want more options. I’m trying the butterfly project right now, it’s been a couple days and I love it so far! I highly recommend it! And as you can see, I am also trying this blog out as well. Anyway, I really hope there are people out there who have beaten si for good, because I need to know that it’s possible and see the proof. I wish that I could be given an instruction booklet on how to recover from si, and I’m sure a lot of people feel this way as well, but maybe the instruction booklet is different for all of us. Maybe all we need to do is open it and get started you know?