So, I’ve been clean for a long time now and I have to say, I’m really proud of myself!!!!! But today I think I might have made a mistake… I was buying groceries and as I walked by the shelf.. I si tools too… I have no idea why!!!! I have no intention of using them, but… why did I buy them????
I’m not sure what to think… I’m really confused… Help???
You should be proud of yourself! Any progress deserves to be noticed, and you are so strong for being clean for a long time. It is really awesome I think that you do not plan to use the si tools, however, I am afraid for you having them now. I say throw them away while you’re in a clear mind state. I’ve had to throw away stuff before too, and it’s very hard, but it’s SO worth it! You’ve gotten so far, I am so happy for you! And I don’t know why you would buy them, maybe you’re just used to it and it’s still a lingering habit in your mind you know? I am the same way, I see si as much as an addiction as alcohol or drugs or anything that promotes habit. Anyway, don’t be confused, and don’t let this bother you so much, you’re doing so great! And please throw away the si tools! Keep up the good work 🙂
That… That sounds like a good idea.
Thing is… I never threw away any of my tools.. I just stopped using them and tried to stay strong.
But I’m going to do this step-by-step. I’m not taking my si tools with me when I leave to visit my boyfriend today. I’m going for 2 weeks, so that should help 😀 I hope!!
Thank you very much for the encouragement, and the faith in my strength, when I had none <3