Hello everyone, it’s been awhile since I’ve visited this site. 3 years technically. I was back in High School when I was SI’ing and coming on here for support. I ended up dropping out of high school and getting my GED and now I’m going to college. I’m in the end of my first semester. I recently picked up my old habit of SI’ing and I’m scared that I might be doing it differently now. In high school I wanted people to see my scars and feel bad, I had an addiction for pity and sympathy. But now, 3 years later I’m all alone and I’m SI’ing again. I’m very unsocial and I know that nobody will see them yet at times I feel that I need to SI. It’s frustrating me because I remember the awkwardness that happened between my family and myself the last time that I SI’d. As far as myself goes I really couldn’t care too much, but I hate seeing my parents in pain because of me. There’s nothing that they can do and they don’t understand that, and that’s why they got so upset last time. I’m definitely not telling them as I feel that is for the best. I feel like an addiction for sympathy and pity turned into an actual one, and I never expected this to happen. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know if I’m looking for an answer, but I definitely feel a little bit better getting this out there and telling SOMEONE.