Six month of fighting this…..down the drain. It’s. Been about three weeks of me just SI-ing myself. It’s worse than it was earlier this year. To make things worse, my best friend (ex now) who’s a girl, told me it wasn’t her business to care anymore. She knew about my whole situation, and helped me through it earlier in the year. I guess it just became too much for her, I just became an annoyance and a burden…..not the first time.  I’m just alone…I just have this feeling inside me of loneliness….I hate it, but there’s nothing I can do. My mom hates me and just makes me feel stupid at school and in general. I just want to SI so much, I really want to hurt myself…(NOT suicide). All I do is screw up and make mistakes, I’m just a mistake….I am worthless…