Im constantly pushing people away. All because he left, all because he just disappeared. I know I’m doing it, i just don’t know how to stop. I just want to go hide away, and be alone. Because thats how I constantly feel, just alone. And I am. And I’m not surprised, because I push people away, and then they just give up. Why wouldn’t they? I’m not worth fighting for, or worth any thing for that matter. I’d just like to believe theres someone somewhere who won’t get tired of me, or will continue to care even after they find out about the SI…I’m just sick of being afraid of getting too close. Of getting hurt. Sorry for the rambling