I am finally fealing alittle better. I spoke to my theripist and that helped alot. I wish I had the courge to speak to someone when I am so down, but i just think I cant talk to anyone. I am sill SI but not as much. My suicidle thought are gone for now thank godness. I stiff have no sel-esteam or self worth. If anyone needs to talk I am open, cc72463@yahoo.com