I need to think of something I can do instead of self injury to mark or commemorate particularly painful events in my life. To make it abundantly clear to myself and anyone else I may want to tell in the future just how awful I felt, without injuring.
I’ve read lists of “things to do instead” but the recommended activities don’t address the fact I want some kind of permanent “record” of how bad it really was. I do a lot of writing, but when the pain is bad, words don’t really do it justice.