I accidentally injured myself at work today in a place I used to injure intentionally. I got a secret pleasure out of seeing it there on me. I felt like i was doing something wrong and sneaky. Like I was cheating on recovery by finding some sick comfort in the sight of an injury on my body and pretending I did it. Except I didn’t and I had a sense of relief that It was really an accident. I just wanted to get that out of me. I feel like it’s a confession. I guess it is. Im confessing I like that I was accidentally hurt in a way that looks like what i used to do. It would be weird to say that anywhere other than here.