I’m on meds that zombifiy me out i cant feel anything my grandmother dying my hate for the human race nothing thoughts racing school worry nothing in high school i injured myself but the lies got harder to maintain to stop so i worked on cars and would injure myslef so i would end up in the hospital.  well i wised up now i injure in a different way.  But for the first time i felt something i dont know what to do. any information with be greatly appreciated o and i also abuse and drugs i can get my hands on no matter what they are.