One more argument. One more horrible fight. One more bad thing that comes my way n im done! I am one step closer to relapsing one syep closer to ruioning everything all because i feel sorry for myself. One step closer to going back to that life i tried so hardto escape. I cant escape im trapped i never did get out. Its all over. All my hardwork donefor. Allbecause i cant handle myself anymore. I just dont want to hurt anyone else with being me! I just dont no. How! How do i stay strong give all this adice wen i cant follow? Wen im slipping thriugh the seams! I wish i new wat waswring with me but i dont anymore n that is why i am one step closer.
I hope you’ll keep walking through it. I was wondering what was wrong with me today because I felt “crazy” and then I realized it doesn’t even really matter and all that matters is how I react to it. All that matters is no matter what happens, one more fight, one more argument, one more bad thing that I remember to PAUSE and take a few breaths and usually I can get enough of a clear mind to remember why I stopped SI. Even when I can’t remember, it still helps me to at least think before I act. Good luck, I hope your day gets better.
It got better and worse at thesame time but i appriciate the advise i did something similar to that i think. Im still having on by a thread tho. I hope by gacing this priblem im having head on a big ol weight will be lifited off my shoulder. Thanks again.
I know what you feel like. Or I think I do I am so tired these days to really understand things right away . But going on what I think you mean unless I took this a different way I know what you mean well kinda. I came on this blog and even with friends I feel like I give them advice but I cant even listen to the advice that I give and then I at the end of the day have to deal with me . And when I look in the mirror or lay in bed I feel really pathetic because I feel like I am lost because I think that I can actually help others when I can’t even help my self. And after I try to help everyone else Its like when it comes time for me I snap and take it all out on my self and cant seem to actually help my self and everyone around me seems to have it all together and when I talk to them they tell me I am fine or give me some advise that doesn’t actually help. Sorry I am rambling. But I think I know what you mean if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to send me a email.
blueyedginger717@hotmail.com
Pretty much sums up everthing. Except when the give me crap advice im mad because i help so much i feel i get nothing in return. Then i think maybe i dont deserve it at alll. Idk but i handled it better than i thought. I finally talked it out and i got agood result so its all good i guess
thank you for ur help
Thats good …. You’re welcome any time feel free to talk to me .
i hope you dont mind me oommenting – I am new here.
I think that it is much easier to give advise when it is not your problem, as you can often see the issues others are having because your not so close to them.
Taking advice is hard – it first has to be relevent to you and something you can actually do.
Often people tell you what you should be doing,with out acutally hearing what it is that your saying, and i find that the hard part.
When I get stuck or feel at risk, I stop and remember what did I do before that worked and give that a try, and if that doent work I look at why it didnt work and try again.It was something that I learnt from a Nurse who was supporting me and it seems to work for me – not sure if it is something you might like to try.
I even make a list of other things I could do and then try the one that I can do at that time.
It sounds like you have worked hard and that you have made big improvments, when your feeling low or feel that everything is getting to you it is easy to forget all the good things in your life and what you have achived. Happends to me too.
I am now aware of when I start thinking like this and pull myself up and say hey – remember where you are now and how you have grown – for me this help a lot.
Now thats good advice i can follow n try. I like to try other things because sometimes doing the same thing over again doesnt work. Igit where i am now with help from somone but they just became a teacher n ther so busy i feel like im intruding. So i keep it in to myself. I no i shouldnt but i do. I will try wat u said and thank you all again. @ shell& mary
Shell ,
You are right . I was just posting on someone other post and you have to do what works for you. You can try what other people say but at the end of the day they are not you. Make a list is a good idea. I used to do the same thing over and over and it ended up not working any more because of it so I had to try other things.
I found a good site about mindfullness and I have been using the 10 min a day relaxation that they give you free for like your phone and i have found this to be very useful. i play it when i am in bed it helps to relax clear my thoughts for the day and then get a good night sleep.
Has any one else tried this?
I found some Russ Harris CD’s that are of help to me, maybe that might be of use to others.
I used it today after a very hard day- the one thing i know that helps me is music, that and doing my mindfullness.