For six years now I have SIed and still counting, I have been able to stop for a week but then i started again it was to stressful I feel like SI is the only thing that is keeping me going. I have been hospitalized several times for this behavior, but that still didn’t help me. I have had a very rough life my entire life, being abused, bullied, and assaulted does not make life easy for anyone and SI makes me feel like I actually have control over my own life, gives me power, makes me okay to be in my own body. I don’t know how to stop SI I want so desperately to, but i really don’t think I can Ive tyred so many times but failed miserably… honestly is there any hope for me??