So far this year has definitely been a r-o-l-l-e-r-c-o-a-s-t-e-r. And I can say that right now I’m on top of the highest hill of that coaster. It’s been tough and I’ve SI’d recently despite the happiness, but I’m definitely in a better place than I was. It’s so nice to finally have someone in my life who makes me stronger not weaker. Someone who makes me feel safe and secure than sick, not good enough, and not worth it. Most importantly it’s such an awesome feeling to feel like someone loves you, no, make that, to KNOW someone loves you. It’s weird because I didn’t realize that I didn’t know what that felt like. I didn’t realize how badly I’d been used and hurt until The Love Of my Life showed me what it’s like to be taken care of. It’s wonderful, but it’s sad that I had to go through so much to get to this point. Don’t get me wrong: my life’s been FAR from perfect for so long, I had no idea what it was like to be this happy in I can’t remember how long. No one has ever told me I was glowing before. But then no one has made me smile for no reason either. I’m using this peaceful time to make myself stronger, so I don’t repeat the same mistakes twice. I’m not in habit of doing that, and I don’t want to start now. I want to learn from everything I experience now. You see, until me and my boyfriend started going out, I wasn’t sure how much longer I wanted to witness my life fall apart. I’m not saying my bf changed ALL of this single handedly, but he has definitely changed my Life, and that is one of the MANY reasons I love him. I don’t know how long we’ll be together…but it doesn’t matter, because he taught me to care all over again, and no matter what, You can’t un-learn that.