I relapsed last Wednesday after a few weeks of staying clean. The only reason I didn’t post this then is because I was away at Marching Band camp and I only just got back. I would say that I can’t believe that I self harmed after staying clean for so long, but I’m not surprised at all. I thought that I would have relapsed earlier, but, thank God, that didn’t happen.
I went to a shrink/counselor today, but it was a bit awkward, not because I didn’t want to say anything, but because I know his daughter from school! How can I discuss my problems and history with someone who is the father of a really…. let’s just call her provocative and rude girl. I would love to keep seeing this shrink, but whenever I think about going to see him again, I can’t help but think about how his daughter has treated me in the past. I wouldn’t be able to talk to this shrink about that, mainly because I would want to say anything disrespectful about his daughter to him, especially because him and his daughter are also my neighbors. If anyone has any suggestions, PLEASE TELL ME!!
Have a great life <3
That would be a difficult situation. First though – I’m glad you are going to a therapist. That takes a lot of courage, and I’m sorry that it ended up being someone you know.
You could do one of two things – 1. Keep giving him a chance, and tell him the truth about his daughter and your feelings about her. He should be able to handle it. It should be safe for you to tell him your concerns. or 2. Go to a different therapist – I’m not sure if you live in a small town or what, but hopefully there are more options. If it’s too difficult, that is okay. You need to do what feels best for you.
I hope you’ll keep getting the help you need – we ALL need help and support sometimes. And while it’s hard that you relapsed, it is such a positive step forward that you are trying to get some support.
Best wishes, Pam
Relapse happens, do not beat your self up because of that. I know for me personally it took a couple relapses for me to finally start doing my real best of not self harming (I’m on month number four of not).
Pam took the words right out of my mouth on the therapist part except for one thing. He should not bring his work life into his home life if he is a good therapist. He should be able to keep your story to himself and not tell his daughter what you feel about her.
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