I’m feeling worse and worse everyday. Lately I’ve been getting up in the morning and just looking in the mirror and thinking about all the things that are wrong with me. All the stupid things I’ve done. I try and look at the things I love about myself, but sometimes its just too hard. I just need one person other than myself, I just need some validation and reassurance that I matter to someone. Because right now I feel so very alone. And I know that that shouldn’t need someone else’s reassurance to feel good about myself, but right now I could use that. I just want a true friend, someone who cares about me enough to listen and help me through this instead of assuming I’m fine, because I’m not. I am sooo far away from fine. I’m struggling to stay strong, but its so hard.
Sometimes we all need reassurance. I tend to feel alone and think about all of the things I’ve done. I alway play the if game, if I didn’t start to self harm in elementary school I wouldn’t be where I am today, if I stopped early enough the scars wouldn’t be as much but the fact is every single obstacle and things we have done as made us who we are today. I know it’s hard to really think about it and believe it because it took me constant reminders from my friends to believe it. I know how hard it is to deal with self harm and then struggle to find someone you trust. You deserve an amazing friend, you deserve so much more than you realize. You’re worthy and I believe in you. I know I’m a stranger but I care about you. You are cared about!
Sorry if I made no sense at all. Just remember you’re not alone,your worth so much ad I believe in you.
Stay strong
I am so sorry you are having a hard time. You are showing that you are strong just by posting on here.
Just so you know, you MATTER. I know I don’t know you personally, but your post really hit me hard…I have literally felt the words you wrote myself. No, I don’t know exactly what you’re going through. But I have been there. I have wished for that one validation. It’s not a crime to want approval. Actually, that’s in our human nature.
I just want you to know that I will listen to anything you have to say. I know what it’s like to have everyone think you’re “fine” because you put on a smile and take out your emotional pain on yourself.
If you need a friend, email me anytime. visiblyperfectinvisiblyscarred@gmail.com
Thank you. I have so much I want to say to you both but all I can get out right now is thank you. Your support means so much to me. Thanks so much for your encouragement<3