yep. after a year and a couple of days, i relapsed. not proud of myself but i just can’t take it anymore. so many urges. i can’t get rid of the voices inside my head. i just wanna break down and cry. literally have never been this bad in my life. i can’t do it. i don’t want to live anymore and i hate it. i have no other choice but to self injure. people promise me that i’ll get help, still haven’t gotten it. no one is doing anything. maybe that’s cuz no one knows. i bet if someone found out they’d tell my parents and then something could finally happen. sometimes i want help, other times i don’t want it.