It has been 2 weeks today since my last S.I & I don’t think I can do it much longer.

I’m a useless nothing to everybody I encounter and I can’t take it anymore. People look at me like I am some freak because of what I have done in my past. Everybody spreads rumors about me. Most of them are true, they think they’re just making it up. I’ve done a lot of things in my past I regret and I continue to do stupid things without thinking and I’m sorry to everyone I hurt. I need to S.I but I don’t want to. I can’t