So, today I have been 4 weeks clean from any form of self harm. But…. I’m not sure I can go 5 weeks without it….
Every time something happens that even remotely upsets me, all I think about is self harming, and today… today I can’t get it out of my head..
It’s like.. I can’t breathe properly, and my head is telling me that the only way I can fix my breathing and freaking out is by self harming.
And I know it’s not!!

I’m just tired of fighting the urges, and I’m not sure I can make my 4 weeks, 5 weeks.. I don’t want to make them 5 weeks..