haven’t been on here in over a month and i just wanted to share that i’m now a couple days more than a year clean. i’m really proud of myself, i guess. but i still get urges. not as bad as when i was first trying to stop but they’re still bad. i feel like i’m going back to last year, when i was really depressed and self-harming and such. i don’t want that to happen. :/ but deep down, i want it to happen. i don’t know. any one have any suggestions of what i should do?