well, my boyfriend knows about my…problem. I havnt SI in a really long time; about 6 months i believe. but i’ve been having a lot of trouble with it lately. i have no idea why though. things are finally going great. it’s like  my only problems are now in my head…he got really upset last night when we talked about it. I’ve only done it once since we have been together, but he said, “it tears me up when you do that”…i know people dont like it, and i’m not doing it!! i’m just…thinking about it. I thought i should tell him about it, but i dont wanna make him sad…i mean…what can I say?