I thought going to a hotel would make my depression go away but now that ive been here for a couple of days I realized nothing can make me feel better. Now I’m homesick and miss my dog. My mom is really starting to be the cause for my urges to SI, everything I do she critisizes. Same with my dad. He hates us now, hes married to his job and has no time for his family now. I miss my friends most of all, looking back I could have been better but now its too late and I cant do anything about it. I miss my family, how it was before and my friends. I hope once I move I can start over and forget. Seems hard now