I have so much on my mind but can’t put it into words. I have so many thoughts over powering my mind. I don’t get it. Honestly, I just don’t know. I want to escape. I want to get away from everyone and everything for awhile. No distractions. I want to be able to forget everything in my past. I’ve been getting urges to hurt myself more than ever and I don’t even know why. It’s a horrible habit now. I found this song awhile ago called Who I Am Hates Who I’ve Been by The Relient K and the one part says, “And I was positive that unless I got myself together, I would watch me fall apart. And I can’t let that happen again.” It use to help me a lot, but now it seems as if music isn’t even doing anything for me. Music is my escape and my everything. It means everything to me but it seems to be fading and I don’t want that. I feel like when I listen to music, all I want to do is cry now. I don’t get it. Music is what I can relate to but everything’s just changing now and nothing feels right.
hi there..I’m Rebekah. I just wanted to say that, i know exactly how you feel. well, i guess i shouldnt say that, but, i’ve never heard of anyone else feeling like that before. and i feel alot like that.
I am a musician, so music is my life. (i also love that song by Relient K :] ). i seem to be fading away from my music, and it is making me alot worse all of a sudden, and it’s hard to comprehend.
I am found with so many, many thoughts at once, like all of the time, but i can never ever find a way to put them into words. It doesnt seem to make any sense to me either. My boyfriend always tells me to just say any words that come to mind, even if they are just random lists that make absolutely no sense. i have no idea how, but it never seems to make sense, but he always finds a way to understand what i am saying. It’s super crazy. maybe if you try that, then someone will understand you.
i dont know how you feel about this, but, i feel like its important to have someone that understands (or at least kind of) you, and what you are thinking/feeling. I know we dont know each other, but if you would ever like to talk, and just try, i think it would be good 🙂 and benificial, if it actually works. and if not, then its always good to make a new friend.
just my thoughts, hope it helps. 🙂
<3, –Rebekah–