So I have just recently started having food issues I know that I am not huge but I’m not skinny enough and I do exercize and I don’t eat unhealthy but I can’t be happy if I can’t even look in the mirror and I know it isn’t going to end well but I can’t stop I don’t know why but if I eat more than a few bites I feel out of control. I am still injuring but if my mom finds out again I’m so messed up I’m a disgrace to her a lousy daughter and she checks me now. I know it is wrong but I don’t want to quit anymore I don’t even know if I want to live anymore not that I want to die either I just feel horrible competly unhappy yet stuck.