Even as i see some of my friends and talk to them, I’m not exactly having fun, for some moments i just stop and wonder what I’m doing there and why I’m still depressed. i realized even when i was with my boyfriend i would feel the same way. i would feel disconnected and sort of watch myself with them and actually seeing myself having fun but still feel depressed and awkward. like my depression was taking over my feelings and life. I’m beginning to wonder if my depression will be like this forever and continue to be in my life, ruining my time with my friends and family.