after over 8 months, i started harming myself again. i thought it was something that would get easier. the triggers were everywhere: friends, family, all kinds of my relationships. i don’t plan on it taking over my life like it did before. the last week or so have been hard. being bipolar is hard. i am really struggling…and i have no one to talk to about it. my counselor will just freak and send me to the hospital. what do i do? do i go to a new counselor? or do i just keep going to my weekly appointments and hope that all of a sudden things will change for the better? i am so tired of questioning my every thought. i am just plain tired. so again, i hurt myself out of frustration. i hurt myself because i feel worthless and completely helpless in all of this. i am not meant for this world. heaven is home. i am homesick.