I don’t how much longer I can do this. I am having almost constant thoughts of hurting myself. I see these vivid images in my head and they won’t go away. A friend reminded me tonight to think of the remorse I’d feel I the morning. I remember the remorse well, but the instant comfort I’m looking for right now kind of overshadows that. I cannot stay like this!!! This too shall pass-it’s cliche but I think it’s true and I think if I go through tonight without acting on my thoughts I will see how I feel in the morning. I can’t tell you how strong these urges are. I know you will all understand that. I keep thinking suicidal thoughts. Dark thoughts. I need to clarify that I do not want to end my life-I’m just having these thoughts come into my head. Its freaking me out!!!