I hate my life. I met a guy online (yes, don’t tell me it’s pathetic) and we were friends for 2 years, he was really there for me and I fell in love with him. When he called me his girlfriend more than a month ago, I had to say yes. We started moving to phone calls and he wants to meet – even knowing about my secrets and past and self injuring. What’s the problem? I’m deathly afraid, ignore his calls, and am terrified of meeting because I’m so self-conscious. I had a horrible past relationship (where I was used – and raped) and I’m terrified of loving again. I know he won’t hurt me. I’m..terrified of myself. Letting more people down. No one’s ever been there for me… Last night, he finally gave up on me. He told me to get professional help. I wish he’d know he was the only help I ever needed…I just want to injure, but that would only be a temporary release. I want him in my life…
Dear Beautifulxdisaster117,
“I just want to injure, but that would only be a temporary release. “That’s good
I can totally relate with you on being scared to get into relationships because of horrible pasts. From what you wrote it seems like he is a good guy and you don’t want to miss out on this opportunity. If you REALLY do still want him in your life, try and see if he will give you a second chance. If he does and you still feel uncomfortable you can do the first meeting as a group date or something. I don’t know if you told him about your past relationship but you should tell him about it. You should tell him so he can understand you better, why you ignored his calls and why you are hesitant. Just so he knows where you are coming from emotionally.
If you guys really had a great connection and there’s something there then there’s really no reason why you couldn’t have a second chance.
Just keep positive
Peace&Love
AmorLaVida3