This is my first time posting on here, and probably my last…
For the past 5 months, I’ve been going through a lot of stress..I eventually became depressed and started self-harming..It wasn’t until 3 weeks ago I started really thinking about my ending my own life..Today, I told my mom that I’ve been having suicidal thoughts..
She didn’t even care…She acted like it was a joke..She laughed..
I’ve lost the majority of my friends, and I don’t even know if I can trust my closest friend anymore..
I just don’t see any point in continuing..No one is going to miss me anyway, it isn’t like anything it’s going to change if I die..
Then tell someone else – just like you did here. Reach out and call a hotline – 800.273.TALK – they are there 24/7 and will be more than happy to talk with you about what’s going on. Or call 800.SUICIDE they will also talk with you.
I won’t stand up for your Mom – I don’t know her and maybe she is very cruel. But maybe she also didn’t know how to help, didn’t know quite what to do? I know that may not be it, and if it was that she was being cruel – I’m sorry. That would be very hard to deal with.
You have NO idea how many lives you would impact if you made that choice – family members, even distant family members, friends, people who are friends of your friends, you sincerely have no idea. Every life is of value and you can get help and support for what’s making you feel so awful. You just need to reach out – and reach out to an adult (I don’t know how old you are) – face-to-face. Talk to a neighbor, an adult friend, a parent of a friend (if you are under 18), find an adult you think is trustworthy and tell them.
I hope you’ll reach out and keep talking about what is going on. There is help and I promise – you are not alone.
Thanks for writing. Pam
Please don’t give up. You have no idea how much you matter. You are here for a reason. Please reach out for help. I know what it’s like to be there…to feel like no one cares. You have no idea how many times I’ve also thought “no one is going to miss me.”
But trust me, there are people who care! There are people who will miss you!
The advice Pam L. gave is brilliant and I think you should take it all seriously.
Please email me if you would like to talk. I would never judge you or anything. Please don’t give up.
Hope is Real!
visiblyperfectinvisiblyscarred@gmail.com
I dont know you, but I just want to tell you that you matter. In one way or another, you really do matter. We all get this one life, SI, eating disorders, and other things will always be there, but our lives? Its just this one, dont give it up. Like Pam mentioned, reach out, call a hot line, people DO care. You may not realize it right now, but they really do. From this site alone I have found I am not alone, and my deepest thoughts are not crazy, that others out there feel the same way I do sometimes. You can get through this and I really hope you try.
Thank you. All of you.
You’ve really helped me..
None of you know who I am, and you actually wanted to help..It means a lot to me..
I was where you are a few months ago. My parents found out and the only thing they did was take away my tools from my room and I did not notice until I needed one for my job. They have not talked to my and SI or my suicidal thought.
Think of your teachers, your remaining friends, family, and all those who love you.
Do not throw in the towel in the game of life
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