So, I’ve always worn at least one bracelet since I was 12. I started self harming when I was 17, but I started wearing bracelets early on. So when I started to self harm, there wasn’t a noticeable change. I knew I could hide it with the bracelets I already wore.
What’s really twisted, is that when I was going through short times of being “okay” and not self injuring, I’d wear heavy amounts of bracelets anyways. Not to cover the scars, but so when I self harmed again, I’d still have that security blanket of no one noticing a change. I even wore them out tanning on purpose, so when my mom would ask me why I was wearing so many, I’d say that I forgot to take them off that there’s an ugly tan line.
So here I am, almost 4 months SI free, with the scars pretty much faded, and I’m still wearing bracelets. I mean, unless a person knew or if direct sunlight hits it at just the right angle, you can’t really tell. They look like normal creases of my skin.
But I still won’t take off the bracelets.
I don’t know why. I mean I’m not planning for a relapse. I actually really want to stop self harming for good and I’m at a pretty good place right now. Should I stop wearing the bracelets to give me more of a reason to not go back to SI?
I just thought this was interesting and I wanted to share. Hopefully this is not triggering and I’m allowed to say all this.
Any thoughts would be appreciated!
Thats really interesting. Im only going to give you my opinion in my point of view because everyone reacts to everything differently so I cant say it would work for you. But anyway, I would keep them on. If its been something youve worn forever, then why stop now? I have two rings I have worn for over 8 years, and without them I feel naked. They dont hold and significance for me at all, just that they are always there and when I get nervous or start thinking of SI i start playing with them. But, then again thats me 🙂 Good job on staying si free!!! Keep it up!
I wear bracelets on my arms to. I guess it stops me from looking at the scars and remembering all the thing that are going on in my life. Mabey the bracelets will help you do the same thing mabey having the bracelets on you makes you feel safe. i am so glad u stopped SI and i don’t think you should take them off until you are ready and since you are at a good place right now i wouldn’t change anything. I hope this helps 🙂