I’m 15. I’m going to be 16 next month July 27th. I’m going to be a Junior in high school.

I have been self injuring since 6th grade. And now I am in 11th grade.

I have blonde hair that’s about and inch past my shoulders.

Guys always are messaging me on facebook telling me that they want to hookup, or telling me i’m soo cute or hot.

In between all the “seductive” names they usually try to sweet talk me and make me feel like they actually care about me.

When a boy is interested in me its hard for me to say no. I don’t know my biological father, and never will, because he was an anonymous Doner. So because I lack that Affectionate male figure in my life, I seem to jump on any opportunity that comes my way.

I’m always getting told by these boys that they’re interested, but when it comes to actually meeting up with them, they usually stand me up, or back out suddenly after i’ve done my hair, shaved and put on makeup.

and if  they actually come through, they just want to hookup. and it really hurts me. because I see it as i’m worthless.

I’m not special, and no one will ever want me.

I really am struggling right now.