I have found the love of my life, my true soulmate. We’re engaged and it’s been really amazing. The biggest blessing and life saver. However; we had a rough start; a painful one. I actually stopped injuring myself because of his love and help. Lately the depression, urges, and thoughts are all creeping back. I don’t want to surrender. I feel like I’m trapped in the middle and don’t know where to turn. I feel like no one will understand. I feel like when I try to tell my fiancé about my emotions he just doesn’t understand. I am against a wall, how can I break through?