I wanted to si a lot the last few days.  It’s constantly on my mind. I want there to be a day when I don’t think of si.  Lately it doesn’t happen.  I want to si really badly. I know I sound like a child. Just saying i want I want I want.  But something like this is a want. Is a need. And I don’t want to be bave anymore. I want to be me. The adult who self injures when she wants. Todah as so stressful. Work was terrible. But when it went from bad to wrose, I had strangers coming to help me.  It made me realize how much good there really is out there. But idk why that made me want to si even more.