I’ve been two months clean from SI… But I always feel down and in a bad mood. My parents feel like I’m just being dramatic and that I’m fine and that the SI was never a big deal…. I went to see the guidance counselor at my school and with my permission she called my mom and reomended to her that I see a therapist… My mom said she’d look into it but I know that that is BS cause my mom hasn’t yet a month later… And I have a friend that’s getting over SIing too and we’ve been helping each other but her depression has gotten really bad and is in a really bad place so it’s really hard trying to deal with myself and her… I’m not strong enough for all of this…. I can’t do it….
I have faith in you that you ARE strong enough. We all are. It’s just believing in ourselves that makes all the difference.
No offense to your friend, but it’s really hard to help someone who is depressed while you yourself are still struggling. I believe we go through things that can and will help someone someday, but only after you’re through the worst of it.
My friend and I realized this when we would hang out and we ended up having to end our friendship because we would bring each other down. We’d just get together and say how much we hated life. I love her as a person and she is amazing but it was always me supporting her, and then self injuring and feeling like I couldn’t tell her because she’d feel even worse. She even triggered me a few times. (Not blaming her, but things she did/said triggered self-hate feelings that made me choose to self harm.)
So I think you should focus on yourself. You have to be a little “selfish” (tho i think you’re just taking care of yourself) in order to get better. It’s nothing against the other person, but sacrificing your own well-being for someone else shouldn’t be an option. You need to be okay before you help someone else be okay. You matter just as much as your friend.
Anyways, I hope this helped. You’re strong. Just hang in there <3
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