I haven’t posted anything on here in a while, so I thought I’d let this out.
My best friend Jay is worried because of the “self harm issue” as she puts it. She is scared that she will “randomly get a call from someone saying that you killed yourself, or you were casing a butterfly or something and someone killed you,” as she told me less then 24 hours ago. I have absolutely no idea why she feels this way. She knows that I’m not suicidal, and she knows that I’m not (entirely) stupid enough to accidentally get myself killed somehow.
Here is another thing- the first time she ever saw me self harm, she responded rudely (she’s OCD). Ever since that happened, I feel like I can’t open up to her. I can’t look at her the same way. I can’t pretend that she is my best friend- although she has been a friend for over six years. It’s like I’ve gotten a glimpse into who she really is- a sarcastic person that would rather joke about my mental and emotional issues than listen to me for once in her life.
Tangent- sorry. Have a nice life <3