today i was told that my ex who i just ended things with and who i still love had to go into emergency heart surgery. Then i collapsed cause my heart, then all i wanted to do was go home and hurt myself. Iv been threw so much this year it is insane…. lost 2 best friends,, almost another. And i have a new guy i started seeing, his names alex, hes great, but im scared of stuff going on between us.. why is it anytime i get scared the first thing i wanna do is injure?