I graduted from SAFE back in August of 2008 in Denton, Texas. I have been SI free since then; almost four years. I still have my bad moments but they are tolerable and I am able to work through them a million times better then prior to being at SAFE. When I got to SAFE I had to withdraw from starting nursing school. I was so upset. and now here I am a REGISTERED NURSE! I graduate on friday; and I couldnt be more ecstatic. Without SAFE I would still be continually destroying my life; sabotaging myself. and finally I am at a point in life where I am worth more then that. I still go to therapy and am on meds; but my life is so much ‘fuller’ now; with friends, work, continuing school; and Im finally a nurse. I was so upset when I got to SAFE and I had to withdraw from school; but honestly its one of the best things Ive done aside from going through SAFEs program. Looking back, I cannot believe it will be FOUR years since I was in Texas; some days it feels like yesterday and other days it feels like a lifetime ago.
I just wanted to post to say that healing IS possible; I never thought I would be at a point where I LOVE life; as I do now; and yet here I am SI free; graduating from nursing school friday; have my own place; working full time; I have amazing friends who are my family; and most importantly I am learning to LOVE me; and put ME first; and its a pretty freeing feeling to not need to destroy myself all of the time. I still go back to my logs from SAFE when I am having a horrible moment; and they help immensely.. just wanted to let everyone at SAFE know that I am still going strong without SI.