I haven’t posted anything here in awhile now. It’s not because I got better. I found someone else to talk to. Now, I know that I need help. Over the last couple of days, I hurt someone that I love. I didn’t mean to but I did. I hurt her.

Now, I just want to punish myself more and more for doing that. I want to SI just so I can hurt. I want to feel the pain that I’m putting her through. I want to punish myself until I can forgive myself for doing it. Make myself suffer for it.