It seems like now that I have stopped trying to stop self harm, I have gone overboard with doing it. I’m hiding well, but I don’t even care if people find out. I don’t care if they will judge, or ask stupid questions, or ignore it completely. I just don’t freaking care.
If self injury works so well, shouldn’t you feel a lot better by now? How about trying a different way and asking for help? Tell someone (an adult – not sure how old you are) that you are feeling miserable and depressed, or however you are feeling. We ALL need help now and then. Find someone face to face to talk to. I hope you’ll stop hiding and get some support.