I feel like curling up in a ball and staying there forever. No one seems to care about me. I don’t mean to sound self centered, but its just amazing how people “care” so much as soon as they find out your depressed, and then forget in a couple weeks. I trusted them to help me and they didn’t. I never got better, but everyone thinks I have. I tried to talk to my mom about it. She started mentioning counseling and I kind of backed out. I don’t know if I can handle telling someone else about my issues. I hate myself for feeling this way. I’m supposed to be happy with my life now, right? Nothings really wrong anymore in my life, but the hatred and depression never went away even when some of the problems did. I want to SI again to feel the relief…but I know that will only make me feel worse. I can’t deal with this anymore. I don’t want to deal with this. I just want it to go away…