I’m new to this site, I have been feeling like using self-injurious behaviors because I don’t see another way out of my thoughts and feelings. I feel as if I’m no one and that I’m ugly anyways and that no one would care if I hurt myself, nobody understands my pain, and I don’t know what else to do. I’m struggling and this seems to be the only way to get out of myself to even feel anything at all.
Dear Jen Bosher,
I want you to know that you are somebody. We were all put on this earth for a reason and our duty on this earth is to do good and find what our purpose for living is. I also want you to know that you are not ugly, you are a beautiful person and you do not deserve to be treated they way you feel by others as well as yourself are treating you.
You may feel as though nobody understands your pain, but trust me there is someone out there that does. There is nothing that you and I or anybody as matter of fact that has gone through something that no one else has gone through.
Dealing with self injury is a struggle it’s a very ugly struggle. The way that it can control you life and mind is crazy. This is though and the feelings will keep coming back but it is up to you, not to listen to it, because you are better than that behavior.
At the time you may feel that self injuring is the solution to the problem, but it’s really not. It’s a negative solution that for some reason feels right. Self injuring doesn’t help the problem it just makes you “feel better” for the moment but the problem will still be there. Then something else happens and you do it again and again. It’s a horrible cycle.
I hope you figure out a way to talk or write your feeling out. Trust me finding other positive solutions to deal with your pain makes you feel so much better. Tell yourself that you a beautiful and worthy of better treatment. Write it on a Post-it-note and tape it to your bathroom mirror just as a reminder.
Peace&Love
-amorlavida3