So last night I was at my boyfriends, we were having a nice evening when I suddenly start to remember my father. When I was two years old my mum walked out on him. There was an event that took place prior to her walking out but for so many years I haven’t been able to remember what happened. Then last night I was suddenly reminded of everything that took place the night my mum left my dad.
I remember him hitting me because I wouldn’t stop crying, my mum wasn’t at home at this time, but my sister was but he obviously locked the door or something. And nobody could help me. I was on my own.
I have self harmed in the past but today it is back. I feel like remembering what he did is going to start destroying me, I don’t know what to do to try and get over this in some way, I don’t want my self harm to get worse.