All my parents ever talk about is how i’m such a burden because they have to pay for my medication, doctors appoinments, and hospital visits. I gained alot of weight since last year. Last year i was a freshman in high school and i was a 00 now i’m a sophmore. I’ve been restricting food. I can’t stand to look at myself in the mirror. None of myclothes fit properly but my parents dnt have the “money” to take me to get new clothes. But they have the money to buy stuff that doesn’t need to be bough for my younger brother and sister. I”m just a burden. I’m in PHP right now and my parents complain how thats an inconvinience to because they have to drive me back and forth. they didn’t even want to send me to the hospital last weekend when i tried to kill myself by Self Injuring. They aren’t even concerened that i have food issues. i’m a waste of space why am i here?!
You are definitely not a waste of space; everyone was put on this earth for a reason. If you result in the easy way out then no one or yourself will know what your purpose for being is. I know what it feels like to feel like you are a burden and the unequal treatment or favoritism that your parents seem to have between you and your siblings. It definitely is awful to feel that way. But you can’t afford to focus on that you have to focus on yourself and loving WHO YOU ARE.
I you don’t feel comfortable with the way you look and want to lose weight please please please do it the healthy way. Talk to the doctor and they could probably referrer you to a nutritionist, it’s just not safe to be restricting food. When you already have a negative addiction like self injury it is easier to adapt to other negative addictions like eating disorders. Talking about the situation is always better than keeping it to yourself. You are actually hurting yourself more by doing that and it could cause a horrible down-ward spiral. Speaking up helps you as well as others around you so they know how to help you.
You need to find the courage to get help and help yourself because YOU DESERVE that. Know that you are a beautiful girl, smart girl, and a girl that deserves happiness in a life full of opportunity.
If you ever need someone to talk to you can email me at tbobo3@yahoo.com
I’m always willing to listen and help 🙂
thankyou