Five months down the drain. I SIed and idk what to do now. I feel numb. I feel like an idiot for relapsing. I new it’d be a matter of time tho. The good news is I didn’t go over board with it. I think I’m fine but idk I’m scared to tell my best friend because she believed so much that I could fight it but my life is just a jumbled mess and I am just a wreck. Idk what to do anymore Help