Five months down the drain. I SIed and idk what to do now. I feel numb. I feel like an idiot for relapsing. I new it’d be a matter of time tho. The good news is I didn’t go over board with it. I think I’m fine but idk I’m scared to tell my best friend because she believed so much that I could fight it but my life is just a jumbled mess and I am just a wreck. Idk what to do anymore Help
Relapse is a part of recovery. It took me a while to realize that, but you should be ECSTATIC that you made it five months! That is truly amazing and a real accomplishment.
I made it four months and then relapsed so I can understand everything you wrote. The bad thing is that I went overboard with my relapse and I ended up getting addicted again. In my head, I thought a relapse meant I failed and there is no hope to try again. But that is NOT true.
Relapse is a part of recovery. You can’t just quit cold turkey. But you have to tell yourself that it’s okay to fall sometimes and get right back up. I relapsed back in January and right now I am six weeks SI free! I know I’ll probably relapse again but it’s the fact that we’re trying that matters, and when we do relapse, we won’t give up. We just try again.
If your best friend is really your best friend, she won’t be upset with you if you tell her you relapsed. She will be supportive of you and say that it’s okay and that you can get back up and start again. I was never afraid to tell my best friend I relapsed because I knew she would understand. Best friends are there for you to build you up, not make you afraid. If she gets angry with you, then she’s not really your best friend. Sorry if thats harsh but it’s the truth.
I hope this helped. Don’t be angry with yourself for relapsing. It’s normal and you can start again !
Stay strong <3
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Thank you very much. I know it’s apart of recovery injust didn’t have to do it. I could have talked it out or something. Yes my best friend will understand and help me like always. I just didn’t want to admit that I failed.
Thanks though
You’re welcome.
And you didn’t fail. You just “fell”. There’s a difference. To fail is to just give up trying to stop.
look up the song “get up” by superchick. It sort of explains what i’m trying to say 🙂
Ok i will lol. Thanks again. No i havent given up. Neve.