I know it now, how worthless of a screwup I am. I just can’t stop making mistakes. When I think it’s all good and no more mistakes could possibly be made, I prove myself wrong. Everything I do is a mistake, I’m a mistake. I’m scared and alone. I need to punish myself for these mistakes by injuring. My mind is just racing about all this, and just to add to the mayhem, suicide has become a thought. I don’t know where I stand on it, I doubt I’ll do It. I’m just terrified right now…..