It has been three weeks, I think, since the last time I SI’d. A week before that, was the first time I relapsed in over a year and almost a half of sobriety. I threw it all away and frankly, I don’t care. I knew that a relapse would be inevitable, it is part of recovery. I am just so surprised that three weeks has passed and I haven’t even took the notion to doing anything harmful. Maybe I can get through this easier than I thought. The problem is that I still don’t consider this as a sobriety run because I’m not purposely staying clean. I still want to SI, but right now isn’t the time.