I really wish that I never started doing this. I love it, but I hate it. I hate the secrets. I hate the hiding. I hate the feeling that I’m letting down my friends when they see the marks. I hate the weird looks people give me when I do what I do. I hate the look of disappointment my mom gets when I tell her what I do. I hate lying to everyone. I hate it all. </3
You’re not alone. I started eight years ago and i hate that i started and i always blame myself for starting. I always feel like this huge disappointment but the fact is we are not disappointing anyone. Everything takes time i understand how much you hate this but you can distract yourself when you feel this urge to Self harm. You can draw, watch tv, watch movies, hang with friends, write in a journal. You’re NOT alone.