I am so tired….

Tired of self-injuring, tired of being depressed, tired of being isolated, tired of feeling alone, tired of hurting, tired of not being able to reach out.  I just want all the pain to end and the SI gives me temporary relief, but it’s only temporary.  I feel like I’m a burden on everyone around me.  I feel like I can’t do anything right.  I hate who I’ve turned into.  I just want it to be over with.  I’ve tried to get help, but I can’t afford it.  I’ve tried reaching out to my friends, but I’m too much for them to handle or I’ve pushed them way away because I’m scared of getting hurt or that I’ll be even more of a burden.

I’m tired.  I want sleep.  I want it all to end.

Emily