Right now as i write this the urge is so strong i just want to scream and…well…self injure. But i KNOW it wont help. I know ill feel guilty after. But i feel like i need it…i need to do SOMETHING. I hate this so much. I hate the urge. I hate myself. I feel like fighting is so pointless.
I texted my friend who helps a lot when im in this state but he stopped texting back and that makes me so mad.
My ex asked out one of my closests friends and roomate for next year when his excuse for breaking up with me was that he wasnt ready for a relationship. Hes such a…..ughhhh. im so angry.
Idk what to do! How do you fight this?? How??? Im so stressed out and sleep deprived i cant function! 🙁
first of all, if you are that sleep deprived, get some rest. you need to be fully functioning to figure out what to do. if you have that urge to self injure so much, you could write it out, or scream into a pillow, or listen to calming music, or just do something you enjoy doing. if your ex is so horrible, you could try to avoid them… if your REALLY stressed out, there’s this thing you can get at the health food store. it’s all natural, alcohol free. it comes in a round yellow container, I don’t kno the name of it, but it really helps to calm you down. I hope this helps <3
If you have the opportunity, get some sleep! For me, the urges for everything get 10 times worse when I’m not rested and/or when I’m hungry. Lately, I’ve been walking or going to the gym and making worn out…not to a self injurious level working out…just until I’m tired and all that pent up anger and upset and sadness is diffused. I hope you feel better.