Right now as i write this the urge is so strong i just want to scream and…well…self injure. But i KNOW it wont help. I know ill feel guilty after. But i feel like i need it…i need to do SOMETHING. I hate this so much. I hate the urge. I hate myself. I feel like fighting is so pointless.

I texted my friend who helps a lot when im in this state but he stopped texting back and that makes me so mad.

My ex asked out one of my closests friends and roomate for next year when his excuse for breaking up with me was that he wasnt ready for a relationship. Hes such a…..ughhhh. im so angry.

Idk what to do! How do you fight this?? How??? Im so stressed out and sleep deprived i cant function! 🙁