I’m really worried and scared right now. Me and a friend of mine(the only person I can talk to about si) have become very distant in the last month for many reasons but we still occasionly talk. He always says hes still here for but things aren’t the same anymore. Well ive been doing pretty good about not SIing its been almost a month but last night I have some major stressors any triggers going on so I decided to turn to my friend to talk. He basically told me not to but that I have to do what I have to do and he wont hate me if I do. That really threw me. That’s not what I need to hear. I need to here him to tell me not too and give me reasons. Or just to let me talk about my triggers. I talked myself out of it but its the closest ive been. I’m terrified I’m loosing the only person I can talk to. I don’t know what to do. I cant do it alone. I need someone to tell me things will be okay….